Letter to the girl in me

Hello, I am you, that girl, but with a few more wrinkles, with a few more years and with many things learned and to learn. Every day I think of you and try to recover your sweetness and your naivety.

Life has made me go through complicated circumstances, such as the death of a loved one, the illness of a family member or friend, the breakup with several partners, the loss of a job… But I never forgot you.

I have also lived very happy circumstances, I have met wonderful people and I have been to incredible places, I have loved, I have kissed, I have hugged, I have laughed and, above all, I have learned Things I didn’t want to know and things I did want to know.

What I have learned

Sometimes learning has been painful, because life has taught me things that when I was a child I did not know and now I would prefer not to know, like there are people that I love very much and who can get sick, that there are people that I loved with all my heart and that due to different circumstances have disappeared from my life, and that there are times in which I have not been able to express my feelings. feelings like you did.

However, I know that you still exist somewhere in my heart when I drive and sing my favorite song very loudly, when I dance alone at home, when I laugh out loud with a friend or when I do some of my crazy things. Although Sometimes it’s hard for me to feel close to you…

I’m going to need you to remind me from time to time that in this world there are wonderful people, that I am capable of loving and transmitting love, that I am capable of feeling excitement again even though sometimes I think that I have lost it and that life is much simpler than it seems.

What I would like

I would like to wake up one day and say that I’m not going to school because I’m sick, and stay at home drawing imaginary animals capable of flying without wings or crossing oceans of chalk. I would like to be able to always say what I think, with such innocence that no one will be offended.

I would love to be able to cry anywhere if I feel like it and not have to hold back my tears. And, above all things, I want to recover the innocence of your look, that look that made me think that the world is a kind place.

I don’t know what was the moment we separatedbut it was a complicated separation, and I may even have forgotten you, but the look of a girl in a park on a spring day reminded me of afternoons playing with my friends, the adventure of sleeping one night at a friend’s house. , curiosity about my first plane trip, my indiscreet comments anywhere with an innocent and curious smile.

What I need you to remind me of

I need you to whisper in my ear every day what I already know but sometimes I accidentally forget, I need you to invade me and force me to let myself go, to not be afraid of anything, to feel and live like a girl. Remember me:

that I am capable of dreaming

Dreams are there to make them come true, not to put them aside and let them be lost in oblivion. Don’t let me ever forget that, feed my dreams, push me to dream every daymake my ideas build dreams and transform them into something I can smell, touch and feel.

That I am capable of getting excited

Throughout my life, every day I have moved further away from your innocence, because the circumstances that I have had to live through, sometimes, I have lost the illusion and the transparent look of when I was a child, so I need you to remind me that I am capable of feeling emotion and enthusiasm for the things that I am passionate about and the people who make me feel good.

That I am capable of showing my feelings

You cried without caring where you were or you laughed without thinking where or with whom, you hugged, you kissed and suddenly one day I couldn’t do it, perhaps as a way of defending myself, perhaps as a way of not showing my vulnerability. Remind me that nothing happens if I cry, if I laugh, if I hug or if I kiss, for no reason, because that’s how I feel.

That I should give smiles

The world is sometimes an unwelcoming place, but if I smile I know I will see it with different eyes, with your eyes, and that I will be able to appreciate every cloud that moves in the sky, every leaf that falls from the trees, every ray of sun that illuminates my gaze, which is yours.

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