I’m afraid of falling in love again

It’s not that I lost faith in love or started to disbelieve in relationships. Okay, maybe even a little, but the point is that I’m too scared to fall in love again. Ah, it may sound like an exaggeration, but I’m really scared to get involved with other people again.

It may be that my last relationship is still a little recent and maybe I need a little time to process and get over everything that happened… But in fact, I just know that I can’t take another heartbreak. I’m so hurt and I’ve never felt so lost before.

My friends keep telling me that I’m young, that I have a lot to live for and that I should enjoy, enjoy and meet new people. It’s not that I don’t want to, I just can’t… I’m afraid of trying something with someone and then letting myself down in the end, or worse, letting some people down too.

Sometimes I keep thinking there must be something wrong with me, isn’t it? Maybe I won’t find someone and I won’t live a great love, as I’ve always wanted… I confess that for me, there’s nothing better than a real love, I’ve always dreamed of it, I won’t deny it.

However, now, this fear of falling in love consumes meit’s like after all the hurts and disappointments, I created a certain kind of blockage as a way to protect myself… I know that closing myself off from love isn’t the best solution, but maybe it’s the most comforting one for me right now…