Come and hug me slowly

I’ve lived many intense, beautiful relationships, but too ephemeral. passengers. I’ve felt butterflies in my stomach, shivers in my body and I’ve spent the rest of the night missing someone.

All this was good because I was also always too intense, I always liked extremes, but now I’m going to test the medium. I will test with you.

I’m tired of feeling a lot and then having nothing left. I don’t want more vows of love that will last a day, a night and I don’t want false promises of a future as uncertain as life.

Then he hugs me slowly, little by little, carefully. He doesn’t tell me he’s going to stay forever, he doesn’t say he misses me or that he likes me very much. Words are essential to writing a text, but in real life, stories are written with attitudes.

SEE TOO:

• I never believed in love at first sight until one day it happened to me

• Dating is for two. Wants to date me?

That’s why I’m quieter than usual, more observant than ever. I’m tired of playing with ephemeral, intense passions that turn into beautiful memories in photos filed in the heart’s memory.

Now I want to live. I’ve already remembered too much and I’ve felt too much, it weighed. Now I want to be light. It’s not that I’m going to stop feeling it, but I’m going to feel it little by little and show myself in doses.

When I say “hold me slowly”, I mean to welcome me little by little and show yourself little by little too. No rush, no fuss, no desire to live a whole story in a conversation for a few hours.

When I say “hold me slowly” I mean that we have time and that, little by little, my pieces next to yours will make sense or not. And if you do, great. If not, we tried. Slowly and with a story.

When I say “hold me slowly” it’s the most affectionate way I’ve lately to say: “I want you to stay longer than the others”, without being too intense.

Isabella Gonçalves