I still think about you

There are things in life that we just don’t understand and maybe we’ll never understand one day… And you, my love, are one of them. I don’t think I’ll ever understand what drove you to end things between us. I know there’s a lot more to what you told me that cloudy afternoon. Ah, I feel like you didn’t tell me the whole truth… And I don’t think I’ll ever know…

Wow, that drove me crazy, I felt so bad after that day. I felt like you blamed me for the fact that we didn’t work out. I was completely confused and not understanding. I’ve tried to be so careful always and not make the same mistakes as the past with you. I did everything I could to make it work. I was completely transparent and I showed you the real me…

I can’t believe I got to share my secrets and my fears with you. I admit I had some doubts about getting involved with you. But you managed to make everything so irresistible and sweet, and I couldn’t resist you… But out of nowhere, you changed and started saying things to me that confused me. I remember you telling me that we were in different worlds, that we were too good together to be true. And that you had some doubts about my feelings.

Wow, so I’m so transparent with what I feel? I made it so clear that you are special to me and that you moved me in an unparalleled way. I can’t understand, I really can’t… And the worst thing is that sometimes, I keep questioning myself and thinking a lot about what I could have done differently for us to succeed. And as much as I keep recapping things in my head, I can’t find answers… Maybe it wasn’t meant to be…

Hugo Vilhena