Too late, I lost the person I loved most in this life (true story)

I was 20 and she was 21, we were incredibly in love with each other and we saw each other every weekend and sometimes during the week we always wanted to be with each other, it was amazing, I had never felt something as intensely as the way I did. I was feeling, but sometimes with love comes jealousy.

I’m jealous and I was trying to control her life a lot, I had a lot of problems and over time I was doing more and more harm to her. I was insecure, I thought anyone would take her away from me and she always gave me advice to trust myself, trust her and that I didn’t have to be jealous (she didn’t give me reason to be jealous).

I talked to her and said I was going to change but I never changed, I took two steps forward and three steps back. She gave me countless chances to change and I never did. Over time she got tired of feeling sad and stuck with me seeing that my jealousy and all my flaws hadn’t changed.

When she got tired, she decided to take her things and went on with life without me, even though she loved me, she went on with her life because she couldn’t take it anymore to make me understand that I had no reason to be so jealous and fight so much with her.

I looked at myself and I was faced with reality – the person I cared about the most, the person I loved the most, the person I wanted the most by my side was leaving and it was all my fault – my jealousy, the my lack of confidence made me be alone and suffering thinking about her and her going on with life without me. That’s when I decided to change, I went to take a shower and think about what had happened.

Jealousy only of what was necessary, trusting myself, trusting the person I had by my side, really doing what was necessary, changing what was necessary, it wouldn’t just be good for my relationship but also for my life.

After that day I talked to friends and told the reason for the breakup and everything that happened. After that I told what was inside me, everything I had wrong and what I had learned from my lesson.
Everyone said they would never imagine me saying the things I said, admitting my own mistake and always wanting to improve, that I had matured and that I was someone else.

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But it was too late, the person I love so much, that I wanted to be with, is gone, I couldn’t become a better person while I was by her side, I made a huge mistake with her and I failed her and when I managed to become the person that I wanted, a more mature person, it was already too late. I won’t have her coming back and I know it, she’s gone and she’s looking for her happiness with someone else.

While I’m here, I’m still madly in love with her, completely sorry for all the times I made her cry and let her down, I’d like to go back in time to avoid all the silly fights, for me to wake up, open my eyes and see the evil that I was doing for her. I would like to give her the happiness that she gave me.

Conclusion:
Do you have a person by your side? You are jealous? Do you fight a lot? Do you think other people are better than you? Why be afraid? Is she not with you? Wouldn’t she be single if she didn’t want to? So you don’t have to be afraid or insecure.

Enjoy who you have on your side, treat them like it’s the last time you’re going to see them, because we don’t know tomorrow. If you’d known that today would be your last day with her, would you have done it differently?

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