I will miss you forever, but I need to forget you.

The truth is that I love you too much to leave you aside, to pretend I don’t care and not be jealous of you.

I constantly think about what we had and it sure was beautiful and magical. Having to leave kills me. Making this decision hasn’t been easy, but I had to decide to leave before I became even more vulnerable to this one-sided love.

I did everything I could to keep you this close to my heart and I could almost see you as attached to me as an invisible thread that snapped so easily.

I still love your way, your voice. I love the way you held me pretentiously and when you held me against your chest, almost making me choke.

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• photos on the shelf

It was a mixture of the good feeling of being loved and protected, but with that little thread of insecurity throbbing inside me. I remember her eyes fixed on mine, photographing moments I wish I would never forget.

I love the way you showed that you care about me, knowing that I value that more than anything. I love your compatibility with my universe and your detached way of being so positive.

I love that clumsy way of hers and how she listens to everything I say and to every detail without going unnoticed. When you smiled and made my heart race and time stopped.

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• When I decided that I wouldn’t live the two of us anymore

Could we be soulmates? What I wanted most in the world was to live that love. But sometimes we have to force ourselves to leave, take another path and pretend we forgot. Maybe this all has a meaning, but whether it’s out of our understanding or it wasn’t meant to be, who knows…

I was there, so close! Too bad I can’t touch you anymore, or hear your voice. I will miss you forever, but I need to forget you.

If one day you remember me, know that I loved you so much and that love made me so happy and so complete. The choice to leave was mine, but it was you who forced me to decide.

I need to forget you, my heart.

Caroline Tristan