God, I trust You to fight my battles because alone I won’t make it

Some days I feel strong and able to fight my own battles. The battles in my mind. The battles in my heart. The little battles I fight everyday from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep, but some days I just can’t even lift a finger, can’t even find my sword, forget what it takes to fight. I forget what I need to do to believe in myself again.

So these days, all I can do is trust You.

I’m trusting You to fight the battles I can’t fight anymore, to win those battles for me, to help ease the pain of fighting alone. I’m trusting You to protect me from the things I’m not prepared for and life’s unpleasant surprises.

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• When it seems like nothing else makes sense in your life, talk to God

I’m trusting You to protect my heart when I’m tired, confused, and lost. To calm my soul and open a door that leads me to happiness. I’m trusting You to win this time.

I’m trusting You to send good people into my life—people who will heal my broken heart and help me trust again. People who will help me win. People who won’t destroy me. I’m trusting You to bring the right people into my life, because I’ve only chosen people who hurt me.

I’m trusting You because I can’t fight alone anymore. I’m trusting You because I don’t even know how to choose my battles anymore and I’m exhausted. I’m exhausted. I’m tired of trying to prove people wrong. I’m tired of making wrong decisions. I’m tired of the same vicious cycle I always find myself in. I’m tired of the same ending.

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• At the end of the day, God will always be the source of my strength

I’m trusting You because I thought I could do everything myself and that I had the tools to win the war, but now I don’t know if I can use them wisely. I don’t know if my mind is clear enough to think of a strategy. I don’t know if my heart can take any more stabs. I’m running out of band-aids to cover all these wounds.

I’m trusting You because, at the end of the day, I know You are the only one who can help me. The only one I trust by my side. Everyone is lost and confused. And only the Lord knows everything. Only the Lord has all the answers.

Only the Lord can turn any disappointment, any loss, any confusion into something wonderful. Change everything. The Lord is my victory and I’m counting on you to fight the rest of my battles because I can’t do it alone anymore.

This is where I stop. This is where I put all my faith in You and ask You to mend all the broken pieces. To turn everything I’ve screwed up. To heal every place that hurts. To grant me the wishes I’ve been praying for.

I’m trusting You to fight my battles because that’s what I should have done a long time ago, instead of relying on anyone but You, including myself.