Don’t give up on me, don’t give up on us

I know what you asked of me, I know what you want, I know that giving up is the best option, but I also know that I can’t give up like this. If I gave up so easily, we probably wouldn’t be in this situation.

Yesterday when you asked me if I was okay, I wasn’t okay, I’m not okay, I can’t imagine my life without you by my side, I can’t leave all that dream of waking up next to you and right before I go to work I already tell you in person that I love you and give you a kiss on the forehead.

We spent so many good times together, so many happy times, I really want to make you happy, I really want to be able to take a few more million smiles off your face, I want to be able to take your breath away and even your tears of emotion when I ask you to date, I want to be able to get you out of your mind with some silly joke, but being able to make you go back to normal filling you with kisses and telling you how much I love you.

You are the owner of my thoughts, you stay in my head 24 hours a day, all I do is think “damn Carol should be here”. Whenever I see a couple, I think it should be you and me here. You do me so much good, from the little details that I have to walk right, to the part that you motivate me to keep going. You’re not just the girl I like, you’re not just my cousin, you’re my friend, my dream, my inspiring muse, you’re everything I want by my side.

I don’t want to pretend that everything is fine, that it doesn’t matter to me whether you want to give up or not, because it’s not like that, I don’t want you to give up, I don’t want to give up, I don’t want to, when I talked about my feelings, that I never would give up on us, I didn’t say it jokingly, I didn’t say it out loud, as the most exaggerated people say “I didn’t say it to deceive you”.

I’m not the type of person to run after and beg for something, or to show my feelings like that easily, but for you it’s worth it, for you it’s worth changing, for you I would even eat salad, every day. You are very special to me.

Sorry, I know you asked me not to do this, but I can’t lose you without at least trying, I know that life is not a movie, that after so many mistakes the pretty girl still accepts to be with the idiot guy only because he said some beautiful things, but I also know that life is unique, and I believe that if the feeling is really big and true, I can’t let it end out of pride.