Letter to loneliness

To you solitude, who have been there at various times in my life. To you, who will continue to be with me in a different way…

Dear and hated loneliness, I am writing this letter to tell you my reflection on our journey together. It has been many years since we met, and we have never been completely apart. Today I want to tell you how I have felt about our relationship. To begin, I would like to remember with you Jean Paul Sartre’s phrase “If you feel lonely when you are alone, you are in bad company.”

We have been down the path of frustration quite a bit. I remember those times when I felt like I couldn’t take it anymore, and that I had thrown myself into a dark and endless abyss. In those moments I hated you deeply. I came to think that you were the worst thing that could have happened to me. Honestly, I wanted to throw you out of my way, but here we are together… again.

It may be difficult for you to understand the hatred you have inspired in me, the desire I have had to never see you again.. I’ll explain. She thought being alone was a bad thing; This was one of the reasons why it was most difficult for me to accept your company.

Besides, On other occasions I look for you when I don’t know what else to do, and I want to hide from everyone because sadness invades me. So, by associating you in this way, I was enhancing the rejection of you. And, even though I think differently now, understand that sometimes I can still get frustrated with you.

When I’m surrounded by people, you dress me too

On many occasions, I thought you only appeared when people, others, left. But I discovered that I can be completely surrounded and feel your presence. Do you remember those moments when shyness attacked me and even though there were many people, I clung to you or those moments when my soul was torn, and everyone was after me to see what was happening to me and I was not able to feel accompanied ?

Soledad, you are a wonderful company

It may seem ironic, but today I can say in you I found splendid company. That’s right, at your side, I was able to discover myself little by little. Being with you helped me understand myself.

Soledad, thanks to you and my efforts, I was able to navigate, I was able to put clarity in some corners that, without your company, I would never have reached.. I was able to build a shelter, where others were welcome, but not necessary to feel safe.

According to Carl Rogers, a pioneer in psychotherapy, Self-knowledge is the basis of our personality, and we forge it as we accumulate experience. In fact, he mentions that shaping our own reality can be, at times, a terrifying experience. A fear similar to the one I had of your presence, do you realize?

On the other hand, Thanks to you, I discovered that I was afraid of my own messages, of how I treated myself when there was no one to stop my internal dialogue.. You made that judge come to my conscience who mistreated my self-esteem and shouted only for me what I could have done better, transforming it into something I did wrong.

Also, you made me realize that I don’t need other people to be happy, I can be happy being alone! Now I trust myself more, because thanks to you I realized my abilities and my limitations, and I try to play them to my advantage.

Now, your virtues do not make me want your presence at all times. In my reflection, I also understood that it is good to share with others, in fact, it is very healthy for us to forge, and above all enjoy, relationships with nourishing people.