I’m learning to forget you

Here I am once again, trying to forget a relationship that didn’t work out and a love that wasn’t meant to be mine. I had so many expectations this time and I really thought it would be different, but I ended up completely fooling myself… You told me so many lies and I ended up convincing myself that they were true. I can’t believe I came to declare myself to you and think you would be the right person.

It sounds like a joke, but when I look back and recap every moment in my head, everything felt perfect and so good. I can still feel all the magic and all that sweet feeling I experienced when we were together. I know our story is over and it’s been a while. But I’m still learning to forget you… I still haven’t totally forgotten everything we’ve been through. And I’ll have to confess, it hasn’t been easy for me.

Oh I won’t deny it, you still permeate my thoughts and my dreams. You’re the one that comes to mind when I close mine every night before I go to sleep. I know I need to forget you and I want to let go of you. I really want… But you still mess with me and there’s always something that pulls me back to you. Which reminds me of how warm my heart was with you; and, above all, how much I loved you and still love you…