I lost you and I never found you again

Like you, I also can’t express what I feel in words, or anything like that, on paper everything seems easier to expose, so I do it today, as you always did and have done.

Sometimes we think that what we read on social media are just clichés, that things are not really like that in real life, and that we can live in our own world with our own beliefs, and for me this is all true, but a day I found one that marked me. He told me never to trade what I want for my life for what I want at the moment.

Maybe I ignored it at the time, but I ended up having to inevitably believe her, because I lost.

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I lost your hug, I lost the sparkle in your eyes when you looked at me, which warmed me inside like a devastating fire that lights up in the darkness, I lost your friendship, I lost what I loved most.

All for a moment. A moment that nothing good brought, because moments are really just that, something that passes quickly, sorry for realizing it later.

And now I ask myself “What did I get?”, and unfortunately I know the answer. I just “gained” your silence, which is deafening, and rips me inside like a knife that lacerates my vital organs, I “gained” the new way you see me, dull and full of pain, I “gained” the pain of knowing that I’ll never be able to go back, and that I’ve lost the love of my life.

I lost you, and I never found myself again.